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This morning I woke up witha painful knee :-/
Don't know exactly the reason, since I haven't done any sports this week. Ok, yesterday I was cleaning up my lil flat, maybe I did some wrong movement. And also, it's snowy again out there.
Went out to have a nice breakfast this morning. We had German cake and coffee. I did not tell my partner but.... I am noy used to have sweet stuff for breakfast. I would have preferred eggs, bacon and whole rye bread. It's now my favorite breakfast! Months and months of healthy eating had as a result I don't feel like eating cake in the morning. Too much sugar and calories... And also, it does not feel healthy to me! It does not give me energy, I only feel overloaded by calories but no vitamines. It takes me back to when I used to be a skinny gal, and I hated having breakfast at cafes or hotels, since food felt like it was just loaded with fat and no nutrients. Then my every-week-in-a-different-city months hit, and I started eating whatever I found without taking care of food quality and portions. That's how I gained about 30 pounds in a few months and started having health problems (ok, high stress levels triggered the whole process).
Now I feel I am back to taking care of myself. Being aware of quality, kind of food and food portions it's an important step. Food is the fuel we use to run us as performing machines. And we want the best fuel, right? So, from now on I will allow myself cake and white bread less often, and start again eating plenty of fresh fruit and veggies. I am lucky I am not fond of fast food, soft drinks and chemical stuff, so it's not a big deal avoiding that stuff. Cakes and cookies are still my nightmare. When I start eating them I cannot control myself anymore. I feel like I want more and more and it's never enough. Maybe the trick it's not starting at all, since there are really few cafès where I like cakes in this lil town (only where they have homemade ones). Cookies.... I bought a kind I used to like in Italy, but here they sell a very bad tasting variety, so I am not eating many of them. I discovered some other cookies I love, though; they have caramel inside and perfectly match with coffee. I will try not to buy them too often.
Some days it feels like the battle with food is endless, regardless of my current weight. On the other hand, it means I am alive and able to choose, and that's the most important thing.
Sorry for the boring and long journal for today....
Have a good time buddies! Life is good!
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