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Saturday morning and time to get my day underway. DH is sleeping, not sure what time he got home last night/this morning. I am meeting for a clinical supervision session this morning and still have the juice to make but coffee is brewing!!!
I did it. I got on the scale. Of course my scale is psychotic and can't decide which number it likes best so I took the one I LIKED BEST. 201.8. So not under 200 yet but making progress and I'm okay with that. There is NOT a hurry. Health, whether it be physical, emotional, financial, spiritual ... doesn't just appear over night. Health is an ongoing journey with adjustments to be made when events and illness creep in. It's process ... ongoing process ... not PRODUCT ... not "tada!!! I've arrived!!! Now I can just RELAX!!!" So lucky me ... I get to learn about health from a holistic perspective ... not just my weight!!
Overall I am doing okay. A couple of days of extra snacks (cookies and cashews!!!) this week but other than that I've been right on target. Oh I did indulge in wine 2 nights. First night I got away with it. No migraine. Last night? Oh I woke up early this morning with a migraine aura. Haven't had one in a LONG time ... dang. I really like wine. It's NOT FAIR!!! LOL!!! So ... I probably should toss the rest of the bottle. Maybe DH can cook with it.
We, DH and I, haven't had much time to "talk" with our work schedules this week but I've been doing some texting and a little email ... and we briefly talk to check in during the day. I do believe we are on the mend ... that at least the initial crisis may be over. Now it's pedal to the metal time ... we each need to do a better job of taking care of ourselves and attending to each other. I simply need to remember that I cannot take care of his issues, business, worries, concerns, health ... I can support him but I MUST let him do his own work and pay more attention to taking care of me. Speaking up when appropriate. No longer stuffing everything but the kitchen sink in my soul. Like I said ... I'm so blessed ... I get to think about health and wellness from just about every perspective possible!!! LOL!!!
Okay then friends ... on with it!!!
Grateful for the GORGEOUS sunshine, blue skies, and warm temps yesterday (50 degrees!!!)
Grateful for forgiveness and acceptance.
Grateful for coffee, coffee, coffee!!!!
Grateful for tears and laughter.
Grateful for humility.
Grateful for God's grace.
Grateful for my life ...
I can choose to focus on the disappointments, the difficult times, the "dreams" that never came true or I can focus on the blessings, the fun times, the enjoyment, the joy, the richness of my life. My life contains all the above and more as probably does each of yours. I am kind. I am crabby. I am selfish. I am giving. I am bitchy. I am loving. I am frustrated. I am patient. I am trusting. I am fearful. and sometimes within moments I feel so many different and conflicting things or think so many conflicting thoughts I think I'm CRAZY!!!
But whatever ... this is my life and it IS good. My job is to practice, one day at a time, at being kind to myself and others, trusting in someone BIGGER, STRONGER, WISER, and KIND; putting one foot in front of the other, breathing in and out, and being willing to laugh at myself, with myself. So ... this crisis has given me another opportunity to take stock, self-examination, and guess what? I'm still here. As much as I wanted to run away or crawl under a rock or "die" (no I'm not suicidal but it doesn't mean I don't think about dying) ... I'm still here and smiling. Take care buddies .... y'all rock ... see you in your journals!!!
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201.8 lb
Lost so far: 57.4 lb.
Still to go: 16.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.6 lb a week
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