|
Finally starting to see a consistent loss which is good. I hope I can keep it up. I am actually very surprised to have such a large loss over this last weekend.
I ate out three nights last week, and then had a feast on Sunday for the Super Bowl. The only day I really cheated was Saturday night, but even then, I limited myself a little bit. I've decided that I can't really cheat anymore. It messed with my stomach too much.
I have been using pretty much just the elliptical at the gym. I find that I get the best results using that, and a little bit on the treadmill. I have been working out hardcore. I've hit the 10 pound mark, which is exciting for me. I like to break my goals up into 10 pound increments, so now I am a 1/3 of the way to my goal. Which, is exciting. It took me just about a month to hit this first goal. So I am excited for that milestone.
I know that there is no rushing your weight loss. The weight will come off when it is ready to come off. I have three weddings this year (well, two including my own). I am giving myself until the first wedding to hit my goals, which is exactly 5 months from today. So, 5 months to lose 20 more pounds. That's about 4lbs per month. Which, hopefully will be no sweat for me to accomplish. Then I will maintain and build for the three months between my first wedding of the year and my own.
My trainer has outlined a workout for me. I felt while doing it, I felt good, but I didn't feel like I was losing anything. Maybe because I was building muscle, but I don't know. I get confused with inches and all of that stuff. I feel like I should schedule another appointment with the nurse at the gym, to get my measurements retaken, but I don't know if they would charge me, because I only get 4 free appointments a year. My next appointment is in April. The beginning of April, so that'll be three months into this new regiment.
I am feeling good though. I've been sleeping really well (with the exception of going to sleep late after the Super Bowl). So, I haven't been really tired during the day. I feel energized. I just can't wait to be back into the 140s. I feel comfortable there. Because then I'm only 10 pounds away from the 130s. Once I hit the 130s, I'll be really happy and satisfied. I felt my best around 133. I mean, there is no real number that I would be happy at. I think that is the biggest issue in the "weight loss industry." That there is never enough weight that you can lose. I mean there is, but you are always pushing for more.
If I can get to 130. I would be happy. Really happy. I think. I guess I won't really know until I get there. I am just going to keep going until I don't lose anymore weight. I'm not going to extremes. I am not starving myself. For the first time, since I've started this journey, I'm eating around 1200 calories on a daily basis.
I get really down on myself when I am not losing. I know that, but it's just because I know that my body can weigh less. I know that I don't have to be "obese." I can be "normal," whatever that is. When I was heavier, I was never unhappy (except when I went to go buy clothes), until I was unhappy. I ate what I wanted when I wanted. But now, being thin, I know I would be unhappy if I were heavy again. I know that from my freak outs when I had to buy larger sized pants.
I hated that feeling and I never want to go back. Ever. I know that I'll lose weight by walking on the treadmill or using the elliptical. It's essentially what I did when I was walking outside every night. I know it sounds narcissistic, but I like being thin. I like how I look, I like how I feel.
I need to be happy in my own skin, and that is my goal.
|