So sorry to hear of your lose. My deepest condolences. How do you make it through? You take it one day at a time... face your fears, deal with your challenges directly, go ahead and cry, laugh, pray, turn to positive caring people you know will be there for you, live the BEST life you can TODAY. And when tomorrow comes... do it all over again. You hang in there and NEVER let go of hope. The human spirit is amazing. Hope sustains us when nothing else can. It gives us reason to continue and the courage to move ahead when we tell ourselves we'd rather give in. Stay strong, keep the faith and make room for the brighter days that are soon coming. You're in my prayers.