RiverRes's Journal, 30 December 2012

I did it! I achieved my end of 2012 goal. And with a whole day to spare! Ok, I am not as proud of that, but it makes my 2013 resolution pretty easy to make. I will never have a 2 as the starting digit of my weight ever again. I will work very hard to do this! and if I ever feel that I am in danger of going back, I will just need to return to FS and read this journal.

It took four months and a week to lose the weight that I let creep on the past three years. I let the weight creep on while ignoring my health. As a single parent, I need to pay attention! I need to minimize my risks so that I can be here for my kids.

The ignorance of letting my weight get out of control put my cholesterol and triglycerides at alarming levels which contributes to heart disease. The diet I have chosen is specifically targeted to reversing heart disease, but it would have been SO much easier just not to get here in the first place.

On to the things that I can do that I couldn't do five months ago.

I could not tie my shoes without having to hold my breath when I bent over. My belly fat was so immense that it forced my lungs to expel air as I bent over. In fact, anything that required me to bend over caused me to be red faced and return to a standing position huffing and puffing.

I struggled to walk due to the pain in my knees and plantar fasciitis. Every step was a scream of "You're fat!"

Walking up a single flight of stairs made me winded which was very embarrassing since we have a 2-flight set of stairs at my job that I have traverse multiple times each day. I absolutely hated going up the stairs with someone else and attempting to hold a conversation. It was virtually impossible. Walking down a flight of stairs was painful and was done while holding on to the rails because I was so afraid to blow out my knee.

My bladder rebelled as well and said what the hell is all this belly fat? And you expect me to be able to work against that? Enough said - it was a big problem for me.

I never realiazed it, but another FS member journaled about it and I realized it had been forever since I had crossed my legs!

It truly is the little things. They all add up. The concessions you make; the excuses you give yourself while comforting yourself with food, the promises you make and know you can't keep.

So, here is to 2013! I look forward to a year of taking care of me. I want to go hiking with my kids and my dogs. I want to get a bicycle and ride it in the evenings. I want to continue my weight loss journey and strive for a permanent change. I know that I will eventually plateau at the point where my lowfat lifestyle/diet will not work for weight loss anymore. Hopefully, that is long way away because the improvements in me thus far have been incredible. I cannot believe that I gave up so much as I packed the weight on. I look forward to a far more active life where I can enjoy the remaining years of having my teenagers living with me.

2013 will be a good year. Happy New Year to one and all!

Diet Calendar Entries for 30 December 2012:
1415 kcal Fat: 49.64g | Prot: 53.13g | Carb: 186.27g.   Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat), stevia, Flavors French Vanilla Ground Coffee, 12" Hand Tossed Cheese Pizza. Dinner: dill pickle spears, dinner roll, mashed potatoes, black olives, gravy, turkey, green beans, celery, carrots. Snacks/Other: chex mix, chow mein noodles, sugar cookie, butterscotch chips, peanuts. more...
3004 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sitting - 2 hours, Desk Work - 2 hours, Housework - 4 hours, Driving - 1 hour, Resting - 7 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Oh my gosh... your journal brought me tears. Since I can't be there to do it would you please wrap your arms around that ever slimming body of yours and give yourself a good long Congratulatory Hug!!! Then another for HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! So happy for you! Here's to 2013! 
30 Dec 12 by member: FullaBella
What an amazing transformation you have had, RiverRes! And, to end the year minus that 2, is so inspiring -- you should be so proud! Good for you! You sound so happy & strong. Happy New Year to you too! Know it will bring you even more wonderful accomplishments & firsts! 
31 Dec 12 by member: Ruhu
Well done! Love your reflections - but love the momentum you've gained in reaching this goal - even more!!! Keep up the great work! 
01 Jan 13 by member: jsfantome
Congrats on the weight loss! You are doing great, keep it up! :D 
03 Jan 13 by member: gabbygabby

     
 

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