Mermaid83's Journal, 06 December 2012

So I've gotten to this place in my life where I know that if I continue with my eating habits I will be obese ALL MY LIFE. Worse yet, I will be the "fat mom" who cannot keep up with her twin boys. They are toddlers, so I feel like now is a good time to finally whip this weight issue in the bud & start to play with them more to burn those extra calories. Naturally I have stress enough that I could probably be content to eat bad, bad things day in & day out & in truth that's what I've been doing.

The crazy thing is that this time one year ago & I was at my lowest weight in 8 years from the "magic" that is breastfeeding. I remember gazing down at the scale & reading a low number, being impressed, & then letting myself eat whatever I wanted after that (maybe as a reward for my achievement.) Well, once I stopped breastfeeding, it didn't take too long at all for those pounds to find me again. Here I am a year later with 30+ pounds added to my short frame. Back to square one!

My body has been on quite the roller coaster in the past 3 years. In early 2010 I weighed 200 & found out I was pregnant with twins. How terrifying! Not so much because it was twins, but because I was worried how my 5'3" frame was possibly going to handle the strain & stretch of a multiple pregnancy. Well, I made it through very well with only some swelling in the last few weeks & ended up at the end of my pregnancy at 267 pounds! After having the boys I lost half of my pregnancy weight right away & breastfeeding took care of the rest. It was only 4 short months until I shed all 67 pounds! I still had 8 more months of breastfeeding ahead of me & I knew that if I watched how much I ate, I could really make some weight loss progress. So I decided I would see if I could end up 100 lbs less that my 267 by my boys' 1st birthday. Well, I made it pretty close...only 2 lbs shy of my goal. And you know the rest of the story. Sadly, I lost my focus, & stopped receiving the wonderful benefits of breastfeeding & now I've got this weight to lose all over again!

It's like my body is a broken record of yo-yo-ing weights. I've always got to be at or above 200 lbs. I know, sorry for the pity party. But it does feel nice to write this all down. So, yesterday I started recording my calories & being honest with myself about what I'm consuming. I previously made some progress on my weight this summer, so I know what it takes, I've just got to be willing to say NO to the foods I love & stop this stress/emotional eating!!! Now is the TIME!!!

Diet Calendar Entries for 06 December 2012:
1888 kcal Fat: 77.09g | Prot: 89.75g | Carb: 223.26g.   Breakfast: creamy peanut butter, great value grape jelly, great value wheat bread. Lunch: great value wheat bread, oscar meyer turkey, kraft sliced cheese. Dinner: cream cheese, velveeta, canned tyson chicken, cream of chicken soup, mixed vegetables, whole wheat spaghetti. Snacks/Other: string cheese, butter, baked potato, green beans, great value mild chunky, green giant broccoli, cauliflower, carrots & cheese sauce, daisy low fat sour cream. more...
2599 kcal Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 4 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 23 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 8 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 29 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Being honest with yourself is the first step toward success. You can do it. Daily I have to tell myself to be honest about what I eat because its the only way I am going to succeed. Keep up the hard work and just remember your wonderful boys. As a note of encouragement and humor from one short (5'3'' too)mom of 2 boys to another... A week ago I was walking our hyper dog while my boys road their bikes. I let the boys get a little ahead of me while I worked on leash training. Then I ran with the dog as a reward for her and to catch up with the boys. Mind you it was a short distance... My oldest (6 yrs old) said... "Mom, you can run?" It was a proud moment to tell him I can. I had never done it before being very overweight for all of his memory.  
06 Dec 12 by member: hobo1219
That's awesome! I'm sure that was quite a rewarding moment. It sounds like you're doing the right things to get you to a healthier you! 
06 Dec 12 by member: Mermaid83
Together you and I are going to kick ass and loose the pounds. WE CAN DO IT. Just like running tonight. I said I was not sure I could do the full three minutes and you were my cheerleader helping push me to finish.  
06 Dec 12 by member: wichitaks

     
 

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