Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 04 December 2012

To record or not to record. That was the question I asked myself this morning. I didn't record last week because I gave into Thanksgiving. I didn't record yesterday because I had 20 minutes to shower and get myself and little man ready. And honestly.. weighing in never crossed my mind until I was about 10 miles down the road. I didn't want to record this morning because that time of the month is here. Excuse, excuse, excuse.

So... I'm recording. This is going to be my big giant STOP button. Stop skipping breakfast then pigging out on junk because I'm too tired to get up any earlier to make breakfast. Stop getting whatever has the shortest line at the caffeteria because I have to rush back to my desk because I'm so swamped at work I'm afraid my desk is about to collapse. Stop stealing spoonfuls of my daughter's ice cream. Stop stealing a cookie on the way to the barn because it's there and I'm hungry and dinner is still 2 hours away. Stop drinking tons of coffee and soda because it's easier than water. Stop filling in the exhaustion with sugar and caffine. Stop stop stop stop stop. If I could I would kick myself in the butt but.. I'm not that flexible. Yet.

Today I got up a half hour earlier despite little man getting up every 2 hours. Thank you growth spurt. I ate a decent breakfast in the caffeteria and paid the $3.50. I will go out and get a salad for lunch after an adventure at the DMV. I will not let the DMV throw me into a stress induced cocoa binge. I'm going to lose weight, gain muscle, and kick some serious butt. Even if that butt is my own. Someday... I will grab my own butt and think wow.. that's firm! Someday.. I will marvel at the fact that I can see my own feet even in heels. Someday.. I will be flexible enough to kick my own butt. Someday.. I will spend 5 minutes a day in front of the mirror thinking.. I'm sexy instead of wondering how long the fat will jiggle if I jump. Someday I will think my hubby is a lucky man because I cook, clean, work, do barn chores, take care of the kids, haven't snapped yet AND because I have a body that doesn't jiggle. Well.. ok.. it jiggles but only in places where it's supposed to.

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1721 kcal

Fat: 111.12g | Prot: 114.77g | Carb: 49.37g.   Breakfast: No Calorie Sweetener, Cream (Half & Half), Egg, Cheddar Cheese, Breakfast Sausage, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: mcdonalds southwest salad, Premium Southwest Salad with Grilled Chicken. Dinner: Steamed or Boiled Shrimp, Romaine Lettuce, Sour Cream, Shredded Taco Cheese, Thick and Chunky Salsa - Mild, Ground Beef (80% Lean / 20% Fat). more...