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Djburney's Journal, 21 October 2012
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I woke up this morning thinking about how my body feels, I do that every morning. It still feels sort of foreign to me, I'm still surprised that I can feel my ribs, that I can put on a size 12 pair of capris and they fit just fine. When I was doing my hair yesterday, I saw the back of myself in the mirror and was mildly shocked at how much smaller my back is. How much time does it take to get used to this? I guess because it is still in change I won't know until I'm at my goal for a while.
So, that leads me to my goal. What are ways that you determine what your goal will be? Do you really believe you are going to get there? I mean deep-down-in-your-gut believe it? Can you picture it? I'm trying, and the only thing I really have to go on is how my sister, who has a very similar build to me, looked at 150. She wore a size 8, and her hips and everything looked so small. I just get a mental picture of her, and try to superimpose my face, and it almost works.
I get kind of a feeling of anxiety when I do that. Not really in a bad way, but I can feel my heart race a little. You know that feeling when something so unbelievably good is about to happen to you, and you are almost afraid to hope that it will really happen? That's where I'm at with it. I'm getting close, it's looking promising, I see no reason why it won't happen, and it's wonderful and terrifying at the same time.
Diet Calendar Entry for 21 October 2012:
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1007 kcal
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Fat: 29.92g | Prot: 84.81g | Carb: 46.42g.
Breakfast: Unsweetened Frozen Strawberries, Original Powder Creamer, Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk, French Vanilla Protein Powder. Lunch: shrimp, tomato, olive oil. Dinner: zucchini, pork chop. Snacks/Other: Cabernet Sauvignon Wine. more...
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I have been smaller in my adult life so it is more about going back to who I used to be - felt like a petite person trapped in a fat body. I have photos of when I was small as reference; and I also feel tge same as you. I worry I will no be able to get as low as I was 10-15 years ago...and will I have to "settle" for a certain range because it is easier? I manage by staying in the present moment and being mindful of each food choice I make today - andchecking out the big pictre now and then to say, "I accomplished this so I CAN get there..."
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I worry I won't be able to get back down, too. It's going to be so cool if we all get there together. I am so proud of you. WTG!
21 Oct 12 by member: Mom2Boxers
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Hang on to that "something so unbelievably good is about to happen" feeling. Savor it. Make a Post-It note. It's what will get you to the next goal, and it will help you set the next goal after that. A step at a time... we'll all get there!
21 Oct 12 by member: jenkie5
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Keep those good feelings handy for your next low. Remember how good it feels to feel good.
21 Oct 12 by member: Neptunebch
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I am so incredibly blessed, and I'm grateful for it everyday. The amount of pain I was in even one year ago is something I will NEVER willingly go back to. I have an amazing job, family, home, friends, kids, even a new love interest. I don't want to give any of it up!
21 Oct 12 by member: Djburney
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21 Oct 12 by member: kmkjmomma
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as a skeptic, cynic, pessimist it is always hard for me to believe. i'm glad you're appreciating where you are now, and excited about where you have yet to go.
21 Oct 12 by member: JessWhatINeeded
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