ClarityAnn's Journal, 23 June 2018

Not sure what’s going on with me lately, but I’ve just not been hungry. I find myself knowing I need to eat (to take my meds)...so I make something or grab something and before I know it I’m eating like I’m starving. I get full fast now though. Let’s face it, i didn’t reach 430 pounds by only eating when (or because) I was hungry. It tasted good...so I ate! More and more of it. I’ve worked very hard at reducing my servings to a more reasonable size but rarely if ever do I not eat everything on my plate/bowl. Even when I’m full (so I use salad plates and kids bowls). Grew up having to clean my plate. Now it’s engrained in me. I hate wasting food. Although I have told myself what does it matter Ann? If you throw it away or eat it then later flush it? 🚽 🙈. It’s probably a battle I’ll always have within myself, although I have made progress!

I don’t usually eat until afternoon. Today was around 4:30 and I just had a little turkey and gravy (made with xanthan gum). Took my metformin and multivitamin. Went ahead and made dinner for everyone else. BBQ ribs, Mac & cheese, broccoli, green beans and a little taco meat for grandsons tacos he had asked for. I must’ve drank 44 oz of water while I was cooking lol. I was so full!
About 9:30 tonight I still feel full but “wanted” some pork rind nachos with some taco meat. Decided to go ahead and eat a small amount (my dinner) and go ahead and take my 2nd dose of metformin (And other meds). That’s only 5 hours apart to take those two daily metformin. Not sure if that’s too good or not. I just can’t bring myself to eat as soon as I wake up. 🤷‍♀️
May have to visit my doctor before my next scheduled appt in aug as I think I may have the beginnings of an ear infection. I’ll ask him about the spacing of the metformin.
My 10 yr old grandson is visiting this weekend and Brooke was supposed to come too, but her parents said they didn’t have a way to get her here and since my car is still broken down, I couldn’t go get her. I’ve asked them to FaceTime with her as I miss her (and want to see that she’s ok). Hasn’t happened yet. Worries me. All I can do is pray 🙏
I’m thankful today for my family (including all of my Fat Secret family!). Thankful for more mobility and less pain! Thankful for being blessed by God with food, a home and life necessities. I pray for each and every one of you to surpass all of your goals and find Good health! 🙏❤️

Diet Calendar Entry for 23 June 2018:
1062 kcal Fat: 76.52g | Prot: 79.74g | Carb: 10.33g.   Lunch: Animal Fat or Drippings, Bob's Red Mill Xanthan Gum, College Inn Turkey Broth, Turkey Meat (Cooked, Roasted) . Dinner: Food Club Taco Seasoning Mix, Great Value Ground Beef 73/27, Iceberg Lettuce (Includes Crisphead Types) , Roma Tomatoes, Salsa (MA's), Daisy Sour Cream, Clancy's Original Old Fashioned Pork Rinds, Great Value Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese. Snacks/Other: Great Value Ground Beef 73/27. more...

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Even if u are not hungry u have to eat, remember food is fuel 
23 Jun 18 by member: rosio19
Fuel that ur body needs in order to function properly 
23 Jun 18 by member: rosio19
😉 
23 Jun 18 by member: rosio19
That’s why I eventually head to the kitchen lol. Just find it odd that I went from being “starving” all the time before I started this journey to just not hungry. Hey! My world no longer revolves around food! Yay! Guess that’s something to celebrate huh? 😜😜 
23 Jun 18 by member: ClarityAnn
It is 🙌🏼 I have been having ur same issue, but i know I need to eat cause, losing weight is great and all but health is priority  
23 Jun 18 by member: rosio19
Prayers for your health and peace. I hope Brooke is ok 🙏🏻 Be sure to eat even if you don’t feel hungry. Hugs!  
23 Jun 18 by member: momma6224
I'm so proud of your journey. 
24 Jun 18 by member: murphthesurf
Great post. Reading it makes me realize how easy I have it. Because I don't have to eat to take medicine I *get* the option to fast. This is a blessing not a 'right'. You are strong. You are doing well. You have your family. Stay blessed :) 
24 Jun 18 by member: adefwebserver
The struggle will always be in you. Don't give in. I got up last night with a hunger pang from hell. I opened the fully stocked fridge and sighed. I reached for the skim milk and measured out a half cup took a a few sips then gulped the last. I suppressed the urge to engorge myself by gulping the last bit of the milk. I know it seems silly but it works. Smaller bowls and plates work but leave that last mouthful big enough to satiate that full mouth feeling. I myself crested at 367+++ and I understand. Keep healthy. 
24 Jun 18 by member: Alnona
You are doing great, Ann. Congrats! 
24 Jun 18 by member: Draglist
I get like that from time to time. I just hate to eat sometimes or even days. I am thinking as long as it doesn't go on for a long period of time it's okay. Maybe your body is saying it needs a break. Also, when I feel like that and I do end up eating, I try to eat good fresh food, like salad, which leaves me actually feeling better. You're doing a wonderful job and it's normal to make adjustments. 👍😊 
24 Jun 18 by member: Becc@

     
 

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