Stromie's Journal, 10 March 2018

It’s OK - this was my weight yesterday, in clothing, no shoes, at the doctor’s office. I was surprised -although she’s an MD, she highly approved of my trying dandelion tea to eliminate/control my 4-5#/day fluctuation in weight owing to water retention. So, I’ve been eating like a pig (1600+ calories at one meal !??!!! AND eating food to which I have sensitivities — wheat, dairy, chocolate. Paid the price - VERY upset stomach, borderline migraine. Was given the food for free - from now on, it gets donated to our community room, NOT stuffed into my mouth! I really have to learn this lesson - it has been my bug-a-boo for 50 years. Just picked up a paperback at a “Little Lubrary” box on EFT (aka ‘tapping’?) specifically for controlling binge eating, I’ll post how it works out in a few weeks. It is funny - I ONLY binge on foods to which I am allergic or hypersensitive: wheat/baked good, chocolate, ice cream. Some sort of detox/withdrawal? This has been lifelong. My mother used to binge very late at night on bread and butter. She also had very poor digestion. I don’t have celiac disease, but am hypersensitive to gluten - I get indigestion, headache, gas, bloating, diarrhea etc. when I had an endoscopy it showed “chronic duodenemitis” instead of “complete erosion of the duodenal billion”. My gastroenterologist suggested staying away from gluten. But when faced with a table of goodies, I go to pieces - I can’t resist, and I also binge. If it’s not in the house, I don’t eat it. So we don’t buy any. 

I can’t see what I’m typing, so can’t correct spelling mistakes or “smart” I.e. dumb, corrections until after I post. For above, try: duodenitis, Library, duodenal villii. I’ve been in bed with fibromyalgia for almost 2 weeks. Started thinking this is the way I will live for the rest of my life (pain levels of 8-9/10, ALL the time, not helped by ANY medication or painkillers. I can’t get a license for medical marijuana in my state for myofascial pain syndrome/fibromyalgia; don’t want to get it on the street because 1) safety 2) it will show up in my periodic random urine tests by my pain doctor. Can’t smoke, anyway. Hemp sourced CBD oil has not yet worked - I need to see if the stronger, more expensive version works any better. I would hate to burn my bridges with my pain doctor by trying pot for pain relief if I don’t even know if it will work! Maybe they will make it legal. The opioids do not help MPs/fibro at all. Ibuprofen helps a little, and it helps with my arthritis, but it is VERY damaging to the kidneys; I’ve already used massive doses over decades of pain. Icy doesn’t work on my pain at all, nor does Dilaudid unless it is IV. I use hydrocodone (Vicodin) to take the edge off, but I’ve built up resistance to it. That’s why I eat; that’s mostly why I’ve ALWAYS eaten - to stop all the pain I’ve been in for so many decades. The endorphins released by food are sometimes the only things that stop the pain. Anyway, FS has still been the best weight loss program for me after my disaster with the proto-Leto diet of Dr. Atkins. I’ve gone from 231 in 2015 or 2016, to 228 in April 2017, to 200,3 in January 2018, to 205.6 in March ‘18. That’s the first 20# which is the easiest to lose. Everything I’ve read on the subject indicates for me to continue to lose weight, I have to add intense cardio exercise. But half the time or even more, I can’t walk without 2 canes, because if the MPs/fibro. Today was a minor miracle - I walked in our building’s corridor, with a cane, and my husband’s arm, for 15 minutes, pretty slowly (like 2mph). I will try and do it again tomorrow (Sunday) but I can feel the storm front that will give us snow again on Monday already increasing my pain. I’ll do the best I can, and stick strictly to my diet as I did from Sept to Thanksgiving, from post Thanksgiving until Christmas, and in Jan and the first part of February. OBTW. I looked everywhere in the site, and couldnt find help, or instructions on how to give people support! I really want to do this, but can’t figure out what to do. I’m using an iPhone 7. Would someone comment with instructions, please? Thank you for your help and support, just for being there.