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Hi all!
What a messy week...
On one hand, I did apply for 3 jobs (and tomorrow I will prepare another application as well).
On the other hand, I fell off the wagon a bit too many times.
Monday we went to theater to listen to some classical music, it was awesome :-) before heading out to the theater we had take away thai food. It was a coconut milk curry and I asked to have more veggies and skipped the rice. Well, ate two spoons anyway from my partners.
Tuesday we celebrated my partner handing in her master thesis, we planned to go to our favorite Indian restaurant but found out it closed at the end of last year. So we went to a vietnamise restaurant. I had again coconut milk curry and half a cup of rice.
Wednesday I was home alone for dinner and made...guess what...coconut milk curry!!! Yeah...and I cooked so much that I have eaten that for lunch both yesterday and today. Today I have added also half a cup of rice.
Thursday we went to theater again...tickets were a present. We ate fresh spinach and fish, a healthy dinner.
Tonight we have eaten italian style fried fish... Not that healthy but super delicious. I haven't eaten that stuff in one year. Maybe not the right timing for another cheat meal but yeah, what's done is done.
I am craving carbs too much, that's why I ate some rice this week. I think paleo doesn't really work for me. I really can't focus without carbs. I will switch from rice to vollkorn rye bread from next week and reduce fruit. This week I haven't been very focused on my diet and not even on exercise. I will go running tomorrow and today I had a one hour walk.
I cannot expect from myself to change my habits from morning till evening. I haven't worked out "seriously" in two years and paid no attention to my food choices. Besides of that, my biggest problem with loosing weight is emotional eating.
It started badly since my mom died, 5 years ago. At the time we used to skype in the evening, I started eating random food in order to replace being able to talk to her. She was my family and since her death I felt so alone and lost, without support.
I still have a father, but he's too busy making money and being egoistic to actually care about me.
During the last year I improved a lot the relationship with my grandma. She's lost both her kids, my mom and her brother, within 2 years. I like that we support each other and talk often on the phone. Well, better writing about emotions and letting them out rather than keeping them in and eating "on" them :-)
I am glad this week I found a way to steer my carrier by getting some extra education without spending (too much) money. I hope the plan works and I can find a temporary job to support myself in this new step forward :-)
Have a great weekend you all!
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