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Hey everyone, Happy thanksgiving! I hope everyone had a great holiday with their families!! This is just a quick diet related update. I've been struggling. Odd, you would think once someone had it they would be good to go but I slowly fell back into the habit of emotionally eating. I was thinking of everything I've been dealing with and I can understand why I felt so compelled to console myself in the only way I've ever known how. I have forgiven myself and am trying to learn to love myself again, rather than sabotaging myself Im trying to look at my own situation as if it were a friend going through it, so that I can learn how to treat myself as a friend rather than an enemy.
Today was the day I set for myself to cut the carbs, and I have been successful. I am going to try carb cycling, my high and low days will correspond with my activity level. On a non workout day < 75g of carbs, on a cardio day < 150 and on a cardio + strength training < 200. Carb cycling is supposed to help maintain a healthy BMR. And I love carbs so maybe it will help motivate me to get my ass to the gym lol. Today has been a super low carb day, which is much needed after yesterday I'm sure. More importantly than carbs, though, I have switched my tracker to show my sugar grams consumed and I'm going to try to keep that as low as humanly possible. Today I'm at 15, not too shabby. Hopefully this new plan will help me get back to a good place weight wise. I've put on more than I'd like to admit, it kind of got away from me and I'm very ashamed of that.
My brother has been kicked out my moms due to his addiction, and that has been a long time coming. Now that he has hit his rock bottom there are only two options for him and that's his choice. Last night I had a dream that he told me he had already failed and lost everything, and I replied that you've only failed when you decide to quit fighting back. That rings true for me as well. As much as I feel like I've failed because I've packed on about 25 lbs over the last 6 months, I haven't failed until I decide to quit trying. I'm not choosing failure. I refuse. Other things might be spiraling out of control, but this is mine and I'm still over 80lbs down, I've nothing to be ashamed of.
It's been an uphill battle. Thank you for patiently waiting for me, buddies.
Diet Calendar Entry for 28 November 2014:
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1602 kcal
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Fat: 91.25g | Prot: 110.74g | Carb: 84.68g.
Breakfast: Great Value Fancy Fiesta Blend Cheese Shredded, Turkey Breast Meat, Egg, Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: Great Value Whole Milk, Quaker Instant Oatmeal - Plain. Dinner: Ken's Steak House Ranch Dressing, Subway Double Chicken Chopped Salad. Snacks/Other: General Mills Chocolate Cheerios, Cracker Barrel Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Johnsonville Original Summer Sausage. more...
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Proud of you. I like what you said: "I haven't failed until I decide to quit trying". Would make an amazing avatar. Hugs to you Sweet Girl.
28 Nov 14 by member: ClassicRocker
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I love that too. No, you haven't failed. You have been under a lot of pressure over the past few months Yolanda. Keep strong, because you ARE. It's a hard habit to break, emotional eating. Just roll with it girl. You are fabulous x x
28 Nov 14 by member: Buffy101
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Thank you for being so honest. I agree, you should be proud of the weight you have lost so far. I think you will be at your goal weight really soon.
28 Nov 14 by member: gingin40
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YOU can regain your confidence and control...and still enjoy your meals. You know the healthy way to lose and maintain. We are here to support you!
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Yolanda, it is so easy to slip back into old habits. Definitely right with you. I've been finding myself back to being a couch potato lately, playing mindless computer games for hours, neglecting exercise and also other things in my life. So easy to do and not notice for awhile. Be positive and shake the old off, work at getting back to the new habits, I'm struggling this week to not sit and play stupid games or stare at the TV.
29 Nov 14 by member: wholefoodnut
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Yolanda, I am so proud of you! Now that took guts. I know you have the determination and perseverance to meet your goal. I am here for you, as I know a lot of on Fat Secret buddies are. Hang strong and get out there and enjoy your day! Truly, J.J.
29 Nov 14 by member: Jones Jennifer
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Me too. Was doing great, then slipped up and gained about 14. But I have put the brakes on the gain and am headed in the right direction again. It was good to read your honest post and know I'm not the only one.
29 Nov 14 by member: cindy4414
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Great eye opener! You are amazing!!
29 Nov 14 by member: aggie95
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Do you follow Chris Powells carb cycling? He has a pretty good recipe for a shake that consists of peanut and bananas with almond milk. It's great for low carb days
If you can have all that go on in your personal life and still be successful at any level, you've done fantastic. It would be nice if we could live as monks or on the biggest loser ranch away from all factors that would discourage us or distract us but that's not a reality you can expect.
Keep rocking it! If you need the recipe I could find it.
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We all slip up from time to time. The key is getting back on track as soon as possible. You will find your way.
01 Dec 14 by member: alexzwk
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