So I woke up today feeling a bit...sensitive I guess and kind of beating myself up about something so...trivial. Its like my automatic reaction is to blame myself, that maybe I just wasn't good enough to keep the interest or other forms of self abuse basically. It did cause me to stop and think though. I realize that this is how I talk to myself, especially if something happens out of my control. I can control myself and what I do or how I react to situations but I cannot control other people and their reactions. So, I need to be kinder to myself. That will be a long hard process but I have to. I got out of a verbally abusive situation several years back...I endured being verbally and physically abused as a child...so why am I continuing with this horrible cycle?
Hopefully, when I work out, it will perk me up somehow. I dunno...
Daily Summary *Oil Pulling: Still going strong with this and proud I am. I am also glad that I have made Phil and my oldest, Kait do it too. I want it to become a habit for them so that way, they can reap the benefits from pulling.
*P90X: TBA
*Steps Taken (Goal-5000): TBA
*# Cups of Water (Goal-8 cups): TBA
Challenges: *Record Everything you Eat: TBA
*Walk 1 mile/day: TBA
*Avoid High Calorie treats/snacks: TBA
*Exercise Daily: TBA
*No Beer: HAHA! I don't drink alcohol at all. :)
*2000 steps/day: TBA
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 July 2014:
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1390 kcal
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Fat: 65.43g | Prot: 67.78g | Carb: 132.01g.
Breakfast: Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Chocolate Milk. Lunch: Pizza Hut 12" Medium Pepperoni Hand-Tossed Style Pizza. Dinner: Mashed Potato, Kroger Baked Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Blue Bunny Cookies 'N Cream Bar, Best Foods Real Mayonnaise, Chicken of the Sea Solid White Albacore Tuna in Water (2 oz). more...
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3025 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
P90X (Yoga X) - 1 hour and 22 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 38 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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