We are all here for you! No, the way people look at us sucks, but i know that part of it is all in our own minds. If I feel a little rounder than usual one day, I always think that people see it. (They don't!) You are here because you want to be healthier. So that's what you should focus on. Do you feel better? Then you probably look better (healthier, happier) to everyone else. And as the numbers drop you will just keep feeling better and better. Good luck and don't let the scale own you.