New to the community!

Hi everyone!
Ever since childhood, even when I would do the same exercises as the other kids and my mom would cook healthy home meals, i was always known as 'the fat kid' at school. In my teens I was always on diets and at the gym trying to lose weight but never could get it all off. Stressed because of all that, I decided i "didn't care" anymore and just ate whatever i wanted and didn't go to the gym anymore. 6 years and 50 pounds later, I now decide it's time to stop.

I've decided enough is enough and feeling sorry for myself isn't going to make me any healthier. seriously! My last known weight in high school was 145, which I would do anything for right now. I currently 24 and stand 5'2" at 183lbs and realize i have a journey ahead of me!

This time, i don't want to make the same mistake as making Health a burden, but a positive choice. That it's not all about being skinny like i've always wanted, but having the energy to do whatever i want and feel good about myself. I've always hated myself for being so overweight and constantly gorging on food because i felt sorry for myself and my life. I hated meeting old family and friends because i was ashamed of how i looked and instead of concentrating on the time together, i concentrated on thinking, "oh, i bet this makes me look fat.." well.. excuse me for going off. lol. I'm sure you get the idea what i want to accomplish.

No more feeling sorry for myself and start caring about myself!!

Now to accomplish that, I'm making a weight plan for myself to lose about 1-2 pounds a week. I want to put healthful tweaks in my daily life little by little. And i will need friends to motivate and support each other.

so anyone whos interested in being my friend, HEY! i wanna be your friend too! So please add me!

hey! you can be my friend! I'll be your friend! I like what you wrote... honestly, I have said what you wrote verbatim. It's awesome to see that you're ready to make a positive change! yay!!!!!

yay!! new friend! nice to meet you!

I'm new to fatsecret too. I loved your post too. It fits me perfectly too. It seems I have always been on a diet or preoccupied with my weight. I too would love to weigh 145. I am 5'6" and 187. My goals right now are drinking more water and less diet coke-not as hard as I thought it would be. Exercise 30 min/3 days a week-doing good too. My biggest struggle is that I work 10+ hours/ day and I know I don't eat right. I'm a RN and run the operating rooms for a surgery center. I don't eat much during the day and then want to eat my entire house when I get home at night.
Good luck to you guys!! We can make this a lifestyle change-not "another diet".

I'll be your friend! Check my progress this year! All from eating healthy and exercising- not dieting! Funny thing is, even though I have at least 50 lb more to lose, I now feel great about the way I look and feel for the first time in my life My BF met me at my heaviest and loved me anyway. He doesn't see me as a collection of imperfect parts, but as a whole person worthy of love. Now I can see myself that way too.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Not everyone is meant to be super thin and skinny and your outward appearance is not what determines your worth. This site really helps if you count your calories. I really needed it to help me figure out that I was overeating even though I didn't think I was. Good luck and I'm sure I'll see you around the site!