First thing in any weight loss journey, I think, is discerning why you want to lose the weight. What do you want? I think Special K (though they drive me crazy) nailed it with their new campaign, "What will you gain when you lose?" What are you doing this for? Write it down. Hang it up. Look at it. Get your mind right and your body will follow, both in your ability to make smart food choices, but also in regard to keeping you motivated to get moving in SOME way. Prayers for you. Feel free to buddy me.
"The grass ain't greener, the wine ain't sweeter, either side of the hill" The Grateful Dead