So disappointed

I cannot believe how bad I have been and that I actually weigh almost what I did when I was 9 months pregnant...so upset.

Don't beat yourself up over your weight. Use it as a taking off point and move forward. What works best for you? Low carb is the only method I can stick with for longer than a few weeks. I cannot do that method either unless I incorporate LOTS of nonstarchy vegetables. Fat and protein keep me satisfied and I eat less. You can be successful. Baby steps are best - learn what works for you and your body.

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step."

What did you learn from your mistakes?

Hint: your problem wasn't that you were "bad" and need to be "good" instead. If you've picked a diet you can't stay on indefinitely, you should look for one that you can.

I know that it is difficult but you've got to just keep trucking forward.

I know how that feels, I am at that spot too, but my kicker was my 3 year old son was snuggling with me, and rubbed my belly and said--Mama, you sooo soft...Aww I thought....then he asks: Mama--you got baby in here?? very earnestly...but it crushed me...that a 3 year old thinks I'm pregnant, that means everyone else probably does too. UGH.
We started Atkins the next week.
It feels horrible to have gotten this fat.