Depressed

I know I have to beat this depression, but for some reason lately,I find myself constantly thinking of my first 3 children that died in 1972, and how my ex treated me after their deaths, plus I am having difficulty following any diet, since our daughter is back home and helps with nothing, it is so depressing doing everything without help since there now is 4 people living here, sometimes 6 when her 9 & 3 year old children are here visiting and only me doing any housework, dishes cooking etc.

My husband is so busy at the office he often comes home late and works on the weekends. I have no friends, and no one to talk to, I often find myself crying for no reason at all. I don't tell my husband about this because he has enough to deal with as it is.

I don't know how to make friends anymore since I spent all their lives concentrating on trying to be a good mom and taking care of them.

Any suggestions on how to make friends in a neighborhood that I have lived in for 21 years? Most of our neighbors do not speak English, I have tried on occasion to talk to them to no avail.